The Greatest Gift in Life is Love

Man! Today has already been a doozy. No problem though, as soon as I get home I'm holding my kid and giving her tons of kisses on those adorable little cheeks :) I was up early/late last night but how can you really care when you have this little bundle of love that just smiles when she sees your face? Man I love my little girl!

       

        Last night, I hear her stir and I think, damn. I peek over at her and she’s, of course, wide awake! Looking at me she smiles and coos saying "Morning mommy, I’m so glad to see you!", and I smile. Man she already has me wrapped around her finger. There’s really nothing better than that, except when I pick her up I bury my face in her shoulder and inhale that wonderful baby smell. ::sigh:: It’s really better than any cup of morning coffee or the warmest blanket on a cold night. She comforts me, as much as I comfort her. She saves my sanity just by her scent alone. I’m pretty sure that God did this on purpose, knowing that to ensure the safety of newborns; they must be appealing to the parents. Smell, one of the most used senses, is the strongest out of the six senses; at least for me it is.
       She has this way about her that’s totally relaxing. I pick her up and she stops fussing and gives me one of her special hugs. Putting her head down on my shoulder, and wrapping one arm over mine and the other gripping the collar of my shirt. She puts her trust in me completely and that’s the most comforting feeling in the world. If I can’t get anything right, I can make her happy at least.

                                             

        

        God, I miss my husband. I wish he could be here experiencing this with me. I know he feels the same way, I mean, how would any man feel if he couldn’t be there for his family? His duties as a Marine must be fulfilled before anything else unfortunately. I’m so proud of him, even if he doesn’t understand it. He’s my biggest accomplishment in life, and has given me the most precious gift in the world. I know that our marriage is special because I’ve felt the same way about him since the day we met. When we met, it almost hurt to look into his eyes because I felt so swamped by this weird feeling in my stomach. Butterflies were fluttering like crazy and it almost hurt, that’s how I knew I could possibly love him in the future. I was terrified of him, and the power he never knew he had over me. To this day, I am more forgiving of him than I have ever been of any man. It’s mainly because I trust him; trust is a very powerful thing. I trust him to be right even when I feel like I’m losing control (which is a big thing for me). I have to have control over my life or I feel like I’m failing myself... He lets me relax and let someone else take control. It’s still hard to relinquish that controlling side I have, but that’s what partners are for. To help carry the burden for you so you can rest. I am so thankful I have such a wonderful husband.